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So i went for a jog/walk with the dog a little while ago. Holy moly! The wind is BLOWING today! I didn’t even feel like I was going anywhere, practically blowing me backwards. The only thing that kept me going straight was the dog pulling me!! At least he was happy to get some exercise! Then, about ten minutes in, the shins start to ache, I could feel a leg cramp coming on. Think with the cool weather and wearing my not so comfy or supportive outdoor tennis shoes really was hurting me. How lame is that? Need new shoes obviously (that’s what I will tell myself anyways). Barely could keep up a decent pace to make it back home. I even stretched before and after! Crap! To make up for my lame jog/walk, i went to the TV and tuned into the Exercise On Demand channel. I forgot how good and short some of those work outs are! All I had to do was search through a handful of them until I found a ten minute booty blast, a ten minute pilates abs, and then did some squats, lunges and shoulder presses with my dumbells for about another ten minutes. Feel better now. Didn’t have much energy to get to the gym today, wanted to focus on the abs today. And I always feel dumb at the gym when I hit that point where I can’t go any further, and at the gym I’ll just stop, but at home I can push through it with a grimace of pain and a loud exhale/moan type of thing. Kind of don’t want to do that at the gym :-), I know I look at those people kind of weird, and I don’t want people to look at me that way haha! Ok, time to go make a healthy dinner. Wish I had a personal chef, oh wait I do! But he is at work tonight cooking for other people….just me, the dog, and maybe a good movie on TV tonight….or I should start on my research paper…argh.

Back in the saddle, so to speak. Need to go workout today. Maybe take the dog for a run/walk as well. He needs some exercise too. Feel so bad when he is cooped up in the house all day when Tom and I are at work. Need to be writing down what I eat. Even though I am thinking real hard about it before I make a food choice, I am still bad at writing it all down. Need to make the commitment to write it down before I put it in my mouth. And need to start making more of it myself instead if eating out, even if it is a salad or something like that. I still don’t know what is really in it. Been really good at water intake, need to keep that up. Think it is the only reason I have maintained my weight, but would like to actually start losing some of it!! Hope my trainer isn’t too hard on me tomorrow when I tell her I haven’t lost any weight…again. She is real good about the motivation though, so that is good. Easter was actually easy not to over eat that day for some reason. Don’t know how that happened to work out but it did! And also did not bring home anymore leftovers than what Tom would eat (he had to work at his restaurant on Easter). Managed to stay away from the cheesy potatoes that way! Ok, it is pretty nice out, going to try taking the dog for a walk/run I think. He will probably be so excited that he will be horrible to manage! Here goes nothing!

That’s how I feel right now. Wish I could just go to sleep, but I knwo I wouldn’t fall asleep until 11 at least, just how my body is. Got really tired about an hour ago, and was still at work. So I left and came home. Wish it could have been earlier than 6:30pm, because now I remembered I have a four page paper due at midnight, doh! Good thing it is not heavy on research or needing to cite sources. I’ll just hammer it out, and it will be however it will be! Need to eat some dinner before then though….hmm…left overs again? Argghhhh….don’t feel like making anything else, so i guess that is what it will be. Tomorrow will be all work and then night class, not fun to come home at 9:30pm and be starving and no time to work out (I just can’t do crack of dawn morning workouts, my body doesn’t like it and if I actually could fall asleep before midnight that would probably help, too). Tuesdays are just a really hard day for me to do any of that. Oh no! Easter this weekend! REALLY?!?! It does not feel like Easter should be on Sunday already. That also means I lose a gym work out b/c the community center is closed. Got to push for Wed-Sat workouts then I guess. Going to make three days at least! mmeeeehhh…….time to find some left over grub…then paper time….hope to be finished with it by 9pm, that’s my goal

Oh man! Last week was horrible! I worked 55 hours in six days (and only get paid for 40, no such thing as overtime in nonprofits), not to mention night class on top of that. OH! So far behind in school work. Came home from having to work at 7am on Saturday morning and crashed for the rest of the night, on accident! Was planning on getting to the gym too! That did NOT happen! My trainer kicked my butt yesterday afternoon, and then another hour of yoga class after that! It was a good work out though, the butt and thighs are hurting today!!

Anyone else hate daylight savings? It’s great that it’s lighter out longer, but MAN I love that hour of sleep I am missing! Sorry to the Fitness Fanatics group for my lack of participation last week. I can’t check personal email at work and by the time I get home at night, it can be 8 or 9pm sometimes and don’t get a chance to jump on the computer. Hopefully this week will be better. Good luck this week!!

At least I know i am not the only one out there dying of this thing. I am so sick of being sick. When will it end? Usually the flu only gets me for three days, apparently this is the week long flu, and when I say week long, I mean the whole 7 days. You would think a week off work woudl be nice and relaxing, but no. I haven’t even been able to catch up on Maury or Montel, I fall asleep too easily, or I have had no attention span, or I am fighting off leg cramps and moans that randomly escaped from my mouth and scare the dog. Maybe I should shower, I’m sure my boyfriend would appreciate it. Now he is getting sick, and not so nice towards me anymore. I don’t have any energy. I don’t have an appetite and am now forcing myself to eat (possibly to give me more energy). We will see. I am ready for a nap, sitting in front of the computer is like a work out right now. Good god…never thought I’d say I look forward to work next week! This weekend will be filled with catching up on all of the school work I shoudl have been working on the past week. Need to get my calendar back in order and crack down to try and get back ahead of the game. April will come too soon and then I really won’t have time to get sick or worry about what needs to get done. Shower time….well, maybe nap time first…..

Oh my god, day four of the super avian bird flu bug thing! Someone kill me already!! I can barely function, and when I do, it causes me to hack up a lung so hard that it takes me five minutes to get my breath back!! Still don’t have an appetite. Pretty much fruit is the only thing that has even tasted good to me, so I guess that is better than nothing. Stick with that and some echinecea tea. My nose won’t stop running now! Two days ago it was fever and chills and yesterday all upper respiratory and head, runny nose crap! I’ve called in sick for day number three, had to miss night class on Tuesday, am so far behind in reading for that class,I am not going to have a life this weekend even if i wanted one as I will be catching up on reading and laundry and everythign else i usually do during the week….Good god, spare me at some point this week…..

Have had the flu for day number three. Feel like crap still. Haven’t eaten much of anything, haven’t had an appetite. Guess that is one way to lose weight. Got a personal trainer on Sunday, worked my ass off more than I have in a really long time, then woke up early Monday morning sicker than a dog. Can’t blame the personal training, think I was already on the verge of getting sick. Just wish I could have gotten all into it this week like I had wanted to. It would have been a good week with not so much going on at work, but then this flu bug had to get me down. Lost five pounds in two days from not eating. Not healthy, but I guess it’s a few pounds I am not going to miss. Hopefully can get back up on the horse tomorrow or Friday. Need to start my hard core training work outs.

Food Log

Exercise Log

So, today is not going to be the day that I begin again. I have been on and off my eating habits all summer. I try to be good, and then I leave for a week long vacation and temptation arises. I am usually pretty good about it, unless it involves having a few drinks. I like gin. Yum. I need to get away from it though and I know it. I visited with my nutritionist yesterday, the one i began seeing a few times last November and into the new year. I did real well until right around the time of my birthday. I had finished my major events at work and decided to kick back and relax. Well, I lost some major structure that was in my life and it became all too easy to say I’d work out tomorrow, I could have just one more drink tonight, and then it was all done with once I began traveling through the rest of the summer. So I decided to begin my new “way of life” as I have to call it, on Tuesday, the day after Labor Day. I have to call it new way of life because i hate the word diet. Diet to me means something that is temporary and something to easily push aside whenever i want. A new way of life gives it a more positive outlook, something to strive for and achieve and keep it going. Tuesday will come soon enough, but I am going to allow myself one so called last hurrah to eat a few bad things I shouldn’t eat at the State Fair tomorrow, and that’s it!

Tuesday will be the day….